Yes, it has been quite a month. I have had the opportunity of realizing that I am surrounded by good people, from them depends the huge break I have taken from life. I am grateful for that. On the other hand I have run again into some very dislikable people. I have learned to deal with those unpleasant experiences, understanding this has helped me a great deal.
I have consolidated things on the personal front, a big mess that I have not been able to quite fix over many years. With the break that the personal front allows, I feel that it is time to get on to business, to push the economics side forward and make more money. I want to buy land and move on to buy my way out of this unsound world, away from the consequences that years of poverty and oppression have turned the tropical people that surround me into.
I like to travel. It pulls me away from all this mess. As the time gets closer to travel again a new opportunity to put everything on hold until better times arrive comes. I like that feeling; it makes me feel new again. I hope things get better, much better than better towards great. Things are good, but they can always be better. This is a gift poverty gives you, once you can catch a break from it you have a chance to run as far away from it that she can never find you; a chance to run so far ahead from poverty than the break lasts for the rest of your life. This run is only complete if my family is with me, this lift, being selfish for the sake of my family's well-being, is a great feeling.
I am nonetheless happier, honestly way happier than I had been over the past many years that I don't even remember when I was this normal, probably during childhood.
Happiness cannot be faked, it is a feeling that has to be genuine otherwise it is a lie to oneself, a lie that has a high cost to one's conception of reality. One cannot talk oneself into being happy, it is a feeling that can only be felt through a genuine stimulation of the mind, a process of experiencing nice things, a sense of well-being that has to be true in perception. Deceitful happiness brings terrible sadness.
I have stopped caring so much about the news. The thieves and crooks have taken over democracy and the people are asleep watching. Let them sleep while the big fat rat eats their children's supper.
